Where did I stop? Okay let me talk about what happen today.

I was supposed to sleep early last night as I felt really tired and giddy. Suddenly, James talked to me:

James: hi.
Serene: hello! How’re you?
James: fine. You? Haha so formal. Lol.
Serene: haha. I’m okay too! So, what’s up?!
James: nth. Just talk to me okay?

HAHA! Steady lah. I knew something was wrong, so I continued probing. Tsk. Love lah. LOL! I talked to Joey and James; I was like the middleman can?

Suddenly, something came over me. I gave them lots of advice lah. Weird huh. You can advise people on the right things to do, but when it’s you who’s in the picture, things are totally different and you feel so helpless. I guess it’s true when people say that someone with a clear mind can think better and a person who isn’t involved in the argument gives better judgment.

When they finally talked, I went to bed at about 1.30am. Man, I was darn tired. HAHA! But I refused to sleep knowing that they weren’t okay. It hurts more than anything else, I really understand yo. :) I just want to see my friends being happy. :)



Okay, I show you my new baby okay? :D Presenting to you my Samsung touch-screen F480, Coral Pink! Wooo… *clap please*

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- Damn good sound
- 5.0 MP
- it's PINK!
- so many good things about it! HAHA!

I didn’t know it was a touch-screen phone at first. I wanted Sony Ericsson W595. My parents already wrote down what I wanted already. Luckily I reached that place just in time sia. The F480 was a super last minute decision; cuz it’s pink yes. HAHA!

Luckily I didn’t get W595. If not, I’ll surely regret. I’m loving my F480 now! WOO! XD new phone, new life, new, new, new!

One of my USB port is faulty. WAH LAU. ROLL EYES can.

My next pink stuff I’m gonna get will be Quiksilver sweat pants, pink shoes… hmmm… I think that should be all. I’ve quite a bit of pink stuff. HEHE.

I want to buy external drive, new iPod when my Nano is full, USB sockets, heels, slippers, shorts, belt, bikini, earrings, rings… I think that should be all. HAHA

Woo!!!



For some reasons, I felt really happy yesterday and I was looking forward. :) I enjoyed myself a lot even though it was something simple; nothing much. I guess this is how it’s supposed to be.

And I had a great laugh. I just want it to be simple like this even if… hmmm… even if… HAHA… I don’t know. Oh well, I’m really happy now and I’m enjoying every moment of it. I really appreciate it so much. Thanks for all the talks, encouragements and stuff. :) Just… yeah… thanks.



I saw Eugene at Harbourfront MRT today. Pris said he’s cute. HAHA! Yes, he’s eligible lah. HAHA! He’s a pilot; with the Air Force now. (Every time, the Air Force reminds me of Clifton; a pilot, reminds me of him too)

He signed bond with Air Force for 12 years. He’ll be 32 when he finishes. LOL! After that, he can join SIA as a pilot or something. HAHA! Pris said she likes a guy who knows what he wants in life; it’ll make his girl feel so secure with him. And I’ve to agree. :) His wife has a future already sia. HAHA! He talked to me online just now and we’ll meet up for dinner someday, I guess. It’s been a long time lah… haven’t really talked to him since secondary school days. Oh… and something to make Pris jealous:

-EuGeNe- says:
hey
ur internship until when?

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
28th nov!
HAHA

-EuGeNe- says:
at least still got time meet u one of these days at vivo for dinner!!

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
haha
yeah!
so fated man
seee you
haha

-EuGeNe- says:
yea man.. i also shocked!!
Hahaha

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
:]

-EuGeNe- says:
u look very pretty now sia

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
glad u still can recognise me
haha
i short hair liao
i want longer hair

-EuGeNe- says:
it's more like u can recognise me
hahaha
i sure cna recognise u
honestly, i find u so so much prettier sia
hahaha

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
make up lah!
HAHA

-EuGeNe- says:
nah
i dun think it's make up
u not hospitality how come u go sentosa for internship?

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
oh and thanks for ur compliment. i will fly one
i doing marketing at IR mah
haha

-EuGeNe- says:
hahah
then fly lor
lol
icic.. interesting
hey.. u haven show me ur bf's photo!!

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
i dun have bf

-EuGeNe- says:
Lol

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
LOL

-EuGeNe- says:
dun bluff lah

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
really
i broke off
august.

-EuGeNe- says:
y?

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
i don't have any more feelings for him; then i don't wanna lie to him lor, that's why

-EuGeNe- says:
wah
jus no feelings?

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
no lah... i've been thinking for months already.
just no security
he can;t give me a sense of security which i think is essential in a r/s

-EuGeNe- says:
icic
but u're okie ah?

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
yeah, i took a while to get over.
like hmmm...
i feel better now... i only feel better recently.
Haha

-EuGeNe- says:
like me like that lah
free and easy
lol
whichh of these days u free?

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
hmmmm
thurs?

-EuGeNe- says:
hmmm.. i'll confirm with u on wed?

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ funny, funnier. there's no favourite movie, just favourite person to watch it with. says:
alright can.

-EuGeNe- says:
=)

HAHA! Eugene is my brother in secondary school yo; not flirting yo. HAHA! Pris don’t jealous, you’ve a boyfriend! LOL! Yep, time to catch up with old friends.


I’m planning something with my dance clique this Saturday. :) thanks for your full corporation. HAHA! Hello, this is Serene, you all don’t reply I pok your head. ROLL EYES. HAHA! I’ll talk more about it later on. I just know that I’m so gonna enjoy myself. WOOTS!


It’s 11pm now and I’m not done blogging. I’ll continue tomorrow again! :D I don’t know if I wanna go for Rahim’s class. HAHA! perhaps I should continue with my well-deserved break? I’m not sure, but I really like Rahim now though. HEH! And not only I want to go for his class, I want to see my girls too. While waiting for them, I might as well go for Rahim’s class first right? HAHA I shall see how… perhaps I’ll be tired? I don’t know. :) Or perhaps I should go because… hehehehehehehehe!!!!!!!!!!! XD





Kandis, I’m gonna be in DEEP SHIT soon. LOL!

Yeah man, I should blog. :)

I feel happy today even though I’m still having hangover from last night party. HEH! This is my first time experiencing a hangover; I guess I did drink quite a bit; troubled lah, what to do. HAHA! I’ll talk more about it later.

I feel like going cycling. If I go to East Coast, it’ll remind me of some unwanted memories. If I go to Pasir Ris, wah lau, it’s too small leh! How about Ubin?! HAHA… I want a group cycling. Perhaps I’ll plan it someday. But, after it’s said and done, I’ll still go to East Coast lor. ROLL EYES. I’ll try my best to think of other things! :)



Wooo… I’m loving the way I feel now. I feel so loved. I get all the attention that I want. HAHA!!! Yeah man, I’m a lucky, lucky, lucky person. God loves me. :) Sometimes I think I get too much things and I’ll tend to be pretty much indecisive. Well, I think this is what I deserve after all the heartaches. :) I’m not completely healed lah; I just feel better now. I guess time does help and of course my lovely friends. :) I think I’ll die without them; ahmagad, I’m such an emo person can?! XD

I don’t know what I’m gonna do now; I guess I just wanna enjoy life without any distractions. Distractions = stupid boys = insensitive boys = relationships = make me sad. Okay, I know I cannot stereotype boys like that. It doesn’t apply to those guys who’re so gentlemanly like my best friends! :D heh heh! My best friends = you know who you are lah, don’t act act come tell me, “WOI SERENE, WHERE’S MY NAME?!”


Okay, so, what’s up, what’s up the past days?

On the 11th November 2008 (Tuesday):
I went to school for Joy’s birthday celebration. I went to Sam’s reggae class too! It was fun. :)

Serene: I want to buy bread at the machine.
Joy: okay!
Serene: accompany me okay?
Joy: can ah… where you wanna go?
Serene: the one at Engine school.
Joy: business school doesn’t have meh?
Serene: have… but I like Engine one (what lame excuse. LOL!)

We walked along Engine school and there was no sign of the bread machine.

Joy: I don’t know if there is leh.
Serene: Hmmm… I asked you along cuz perhaps you’ll know mah, cuz you’re Engine student. (wah! Dope myself. LOL!)
Serene: Hmmm… actually I asked you here is just an excuse lah. I just wanted to talk to you. It’s been a long time.

Then we sat at Mushroom; talking; wah so romantic, I tell you. HAHA! There weren’t any stars lah, but still romantic. HAHA!

Suddenly Joey called and I tried to sound like some other friend was calling me. HAHA! The plan was, when I reached there, Joey would give me a piece of paper which contained the clue of the next person Joy had to find. So, I had to run somewhere and hide till Joy came looking for me!

It’s like catching lah; but with clues. HAHA!

It was a simple and heartwarming celebration, shall I say. :) simple things do mean a lot really. Joy got a green sweat pants from Quiksilver. AHMAGAD. I’m gonna get the pink one!!! HAHA!!!

Chin and I was walking in front of Joy and Frank.

Chin: where’s the sweat pant from ah?
Serene: Quiksilver lor.
Chin: orh… is there any other colours?
Serene: there’s pink too, right Joy?
Joy: yeah… there’s blue also!
Chin: WAH! I want! How much is it?
Serene: $89.90 (Chin hit me when I said the price!)

HAHAHA! It was freaking hilarious. Chin lah, asked me stupid question in presence of Joy. HAHA! I laughed till my tummy hurt so damn much! HEHE!



Remember I scolded my boyfriend Jun Wei @landwithoutyou.wordpress.com right?! Joey agreed with what I said. HAHA! From that day on, his tone was much nicer to me on MSN and SMS liao. HAHA! I’m happy! :D

And Joey told me some of her problems also lah. :)

I just appreciate it a lot when my friends tell me their problems. That means I’m important to them and my encouragement does help. Sometimes, they don’t only look for me when they’ve problems. Even when they’re happy, they’ll message me randomly:

“Hey Serene, I just dyed my hair!”
“I’m sick today, MC.
“I’m with my parents now and they’re buying so much stuff for me!”
“hey, take care today ah, be happy, smile!”

And so many more… :)

Those simple things never fail to brighten up my day! I just feel so important and loved lah! HAHA!!! And we don’t always talk to some friends that often. Sometimes we’ll just lame on MSN, but we know that we mean a lot to each other. I think you know what I’m trying to say? :) I’m a lucky, lucky person.

Many times, I ask others, “How many FRIENDS, do you have?”

“Not many. Maybe 3?”

I don’t know if it’s just me. I counted. I’ve a lot of real friends and I’m so thankful for that. :) And I put them in 3 classes HAHA; all 32 of them. :) Wah I can form one secondary school class. HAHA! :) CLASS SERENE! Yay! XD


Gabriel talked to me on MSN one day:

Gabriel: I miss the way you used to blog, like you being so happy and stuff. Your posts are so damn emo now.

And he made me realized something; I miss myself a lot too. :) I’ll do my best to be happy, really. I’m healing day by day and one day, the pain will be all gone.



Chin said there’s this classmate of mine who’s good-looking and I can’t remember his name. OH MY GOSH! I called Lou, Sam and Jerry to ask. HAHA! SO FUNNY LUH! I feel so bad!

Serene: hello?! This is damn random, but I just wanna ask you the name of the guy who’s always with Yvonne, our classmate?
Jerry: orh… Gabriel ah?
Serene: OH MY GOSH! You are right! I feel so bad leh, I forgot his name!
Jerry: HAHA! So cute ah you all, cute boys talk?
Serene: no lah, my friend says he’s cute and good-looking.
Jerry: aiyah, he has a girlfriend already lah.
Serene: HAHA! I know lah, cute only cannot meh!?



My attachment is ending soon. 2 more weeks. I’ll miss everyone especially my 3 awesome bosses. SIGH. All good things come to an end. Oh well, I choose to believe that I’ll definitely see them again! :)

I talked to my overseas colleagues on MSN. They said I’ve a sweet voice; they like me to call them! WAHAHAHA, I’M FLYING SO DAMN HIGH! HAHA! Aiyah, what to do, I’m like so lovable can?! HAHAHA! okay, I must be confident of my own abilities! XD I’m gonna miss all of them so much. :(

I asked Li Yi about his Japan trip and most importantly, about proposing to his girlfriend at Fuji Mountain. XD

Serene: so how was it? How was it?
Li Yi: how was what?
Serene: you know…
Li Yi: it’s was good…
Serene: and then? And then?
Li Yi: and then little kids should just go to bed…

-__________-

HAHA! I asked him again the next day and it was positive lah. :D



It’s only 9.47pm now and I’m feeling sleepy already! OMG, that hangover is super long can… ROLL EYES. I still feel giddy. ROLL EYES.

My small boss, Wayne just text me from Shanghai!!! Wee! I’m so happy! :D


Okay lah, I talk till here… will continue tomorrow yo… I still have a lot to say! :D

This song, for all my friends, the 3 classes. I don't wanna write names, later people hate me. HAHA! The 32 of you. :) Don't be stupid, you know who you are.

Blessed - Christina Aguilera

When I think of how life used to be
Always walking in the shadows
Then I look at what you've given me
I feel like dancing on my tiptoes
I must say everyday I wake
And realize you're by my side


Chorus
I know I'm truly
Blessed for everything you give me
Blessed for all he tenderness you show
I'll do my best with every breath that's in me
Blessed to make sure you never go


There are times that test your faith
'Till you think you might surrender
Baby I'm, I'm not ashamed to say
That my hopes were growing slender
You walked by in the nick of time
Looking like an answered prayer


Chorus


Blessed with love and understanding
Blessed when I hear you call my name
I'll do my best with faith that's never ending
Blessed to make sure you feel the same


Deep inside of me You fill me with your gentle touch

I bought a new phone!!! PINKY YO! SHOW YOU TMR!!!! BYEEEEEEEEE...


It's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone, like you. :)

I don’t know if I should cry, laugh, worry, think or whatnot. I really don’t know now. Someone tell me how should I feel? I’ve lost all hopes. It was something I’ve been waiting for, for so long. Why? Why? I feel so dejected. This is not the way it’s supposed to be. Suddenly, I felt that I’ve lost it. I’ve lost… somehow… shit, tears in my eyes now, should I cry or not?

Perhaps I should just give up everything? What’s the use of trying so hard? Tell me?

I feel so down now, seriously. I just feel like stopping here; not walking or running any further.

Yes, you consoled me, but you’ll never know how I feel as you’ll never be in my shoes; NEVER. Someone please tell me that it’s not true. Please…

I wanted to start this post with a smile; but what now? What now?

I seriously have no mood for anything else.

Can’t you see my efforts, can’t you see?



Oh… I trusted you, I trusted you.

I feel so damn stress today.

At least, I felt happy yesterday as I stayed at home and rest. I love that feeling; erase that ‘thinking’ part.

I think I should try to blog in Mandarin. HAHA! Then, people won’t really understand and I can determine how bad my mandarin has become. ROLL EYES HAHA! Next post maybe…


Jun Wei @landwithoutyou.wordpress.com:

I just wanna tell you that I was quite pissed off with your tone on MSN. Shit stuff. MSN again, right? Perhaps that wasn’t the way you’ll sound in real life. But to me, at that moment, you sounded so bored and nonchalant. I hate it; at least add some ‘life’ to the conversation. Do you notice that I try to sound as erm… lively as possible on MSN, so that I won’t make that person feel so… unappreciated and unimportant?

I’ll only sound bored if that person do it to me first. But for you, I told you straight that I don’t like it, but your reply was…

“Then what you want me to say?”

ARGH. I’m upset. But I’m okay now, cuz you’re my best boyfriend in TPDE, so… I still love you and appreciate you a lot. I just wanna scold you here! ROLL EYES. HAHA!



Okay, before I continue, those who’ve never watched High School Musical 3, please watch this… Can I Have This Dance? This is the only song I like from HSM. HAHA! Damn sweet… and someone grants me 3 wishes and forced me to say my wishes. Eh, I won’t anyhow use the wishes one lor. HAHA!!!

Someone says:
Ok u can have this dance! : D ONE WISH GRANTED

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? - I'm weak~ It's true... awwww~ says:
hhahah
Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? - I'm weak~ It's true... awwww~ says:
what dance
Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? - I'm weak~ It's true... awwww~ says:
haha

Someone says:
Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? -

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? - I'm weak~ It's true... awwww~ says:
waltz
Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? - I'm weak~ It's true... awwww~ says:
you can ah?
Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? - I'm weak~ It's true... awwww~ says:
haha

Someone says:
haha ok go learn

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? - I'm weak~ It's true... awwww~ says:
then u teach me ah
Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? - I'm weak~ It's true... awwww~ says:
haha

Someone says:
haha HOW
Someone says:
go learn together lo!

Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? - I'm weak~ It's true... awwww~ says:
where
Serene✻v (^o^) v✻ Can I have this dance? - I'm weak~ It's true... awwww~ says:
LOL

Someone says:
Cc go learn with all those ah ma ah gong

-______________- HAHAHA! So funny… anyway, here’s the lovely video!!! I want to learn waltz!


Kiss in the rain; dance in the rain. WOOOOO… XD ZAC IS SO STRONG LAH, AHMAGAD. CARRY ME TOO; I'M SURE I'M LIGHTER THAN HER! HAHAHA =X


I was talking to my Zilra freshies yesterday night in MSN conference. LOL! It was super funny! They (Ronnie started first) called me Thainese. HAHA! Why didn’t I think of that?! LOL! Ah, memories man. ZILRA OEI! XD

Your GL gonna graduate liao yo, must miss me okay!? :D



I’ve been thinking of Clifton lately. I went to Yilin’s blog to see how she’s doing. She sounds better, but… haiz… I still cried though. My pain isn’t comparable to hers. She wrote about Tian and Ting; they’re now happy parents. :) I’m really glad to hear that and the rest of my ex’s friends. I hope they’re all doing well. All of them are brilliant people.


About today… yeah, pretty stress up; so many procedures, AHMAGAD. But, I’m very willing to learn lah. I didn’t feel okay in the morning, but after lunch, I was fine! Thanks to my friends. I love them plenty.

Daddy WW: stop staring at *** ****, Serene. This is not gonna help you.

Simple words, but yeah, thanks so much. :D

I ate so much! :D


It’s Wayne’s birthday today; I got him a card. He’s really a nice boss. My face was like ‘black’ cuz I was stress lah. He asked,
“Hey my friend, are you okay? Don’t be stress. I’m here to help you.”
And he asked me that several times and I said I was okay and he said, “No, you’re not.”

Then he talked to me and stuff. I just smiled and I feel so happy and blessed.

His friends are so sweet to him.

On Saturday night, about 10 of them waited outside his doorstep. They already planned with Wayne’s wife beforehand.

Wayne was about to go to bed and his phone rang. He didn’t intend to pick it up.

Wife: Eh, phone.
Wayne: aiyah, don’t want lah, so late already. I’ll call back tomorrow.
Wife: but I think this seems important.

-picked up-

Person: hello Wayne, I’m at the police station now, kena caught for drunk driving ah, come bill me out leh.
Wayne: HA?! WHAT?! OKOK, I COME NOW.

So he changed and when he opened his door, they sang happy birthday song for him. LOL! So sweet hor?! He changed into nicer clothes and everything liao leh! HAHAHA!


And today, big boss lied to him…

WL: Wayne ah, pai seh ah, today has lunch cum meeting; sorry to spoil your birthday.
Wayne: orh. It’s okay.

They gave him a surprise during lunch lor! HAHAHA! So sweet leh! And when he came back from lunch, people from 5th floor came to 2nd floor with a cake and we sang birthday song for him!!! :D

I ate so much! HAHAHA!

Wayne text me while I was on my way home; thanking me for the card and birthday wishes, wanting me to be happy. :)



I took the train home with Pris; talked quite a bit. :) I’ll miss everything when attachment is over. Ah, I’m so blessed. :)



Weeee… I’m gonna test-drive Mooshi’s car on Sat! WOOOOO… I’m gonna take driving soon already! YAY. Chin is going to register soon too! I must pass before her! RAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH… XD



A conversation with my cute didi. XD

dennis says:
gt go home eat
dennis says:
????????

Serene - healing... says:
no

dennis says:
ok
dennis says:
u come back late ?

Serene - healing... says:
yes

dennis says:
oooo......
dennis says:
u working nw ?

Serene - healing... says:
yes
Serene - healing... says:
you remember to study ah
Serene - healing... says:
don't always play

dennis says:
okok
dennis says:
not me

Serene - healing... says:
don't okok ah

dennis says:
is sister

Serene - healing... says:
what not you
Serene - healing... says:
you online is playing lor
Serene - healing... says:
your hands now touching the computer right

dennis says:
ok

Serene - healing... says:
still want to bluff
Serene - healing... says:
study hard ah

dennis says:
okokokokokokok

Serene - healing... says:
-______-
Serene - healing... says:
DON'T OK ME

dennis says:
lol7

Serene - healing... says:
go study!

dennis says:
okokokokokok

Serene - healing... says:
wah, you know how to use LOL sia!!!!!!!!!

???: Pinkie! XD WHERE DO YOU STAY
Serene: Hello ???. I stay opposite you when you fold singapore into half. HAHA
???: So you're on the other side of my heart? Haha! You didn't reply me!
Serene: HAHA that's so funny, i laughed. Lol. Eh cuz I slept liao mah.
???: Ahaha. XD I'm at friend's place still
Serene: Lol. Why you wake up so early. HAHA WAH save money, nvr open room ah HAHA
???: Haha what nonsense. i not so sui bian one ok
Serene: HAHA really?! Lol go back sleep lah. HAHA


Harmless sweet-talker. LOL!


Why do we fall for someone who doesn't have any feelings for us?
Why don't we fall for someone who does have feelings for us?

Ohh, how about a round of applause…

Tryin' to apologize

Please, just cut it out

And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on

Ohh, and the award for the best liar goes to you

Let's hear your speech out



And I felt something; warmth. :) Thanks.



Weee... I'm putting up this song again... SO can i have this dance? :)

I won’t lie to myself any longer. After the conversation with some of the seniors yesterday, somehow, my heart finally starts to hurt. It’s a good sign. All along, I don’t feel any pain. I’ve buried too many things deep inside.

I’ll talk about this later…

I guess I want to start with something funny first. I’ve been ‘flirting’ with Joey’s boyfriend. Hor, hor, Joey is angry now… AHMGAD, I’m like so open about the flirting! LOL! Eh, just joking only ah; never flirt lah. ROLL EYES. I told Joey what we’ve been talking about and I told our friends too; we laughed at Joey’s boyfriend like siao. HAHAHA!!! And this is gonna be a really long conversation, so, it’s up to you if you wanna read or not and it’s up to me cuz I just wanna post…

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So funny please... Even now, when I read the conversation, I'm laughing. HAHA!




Bei: you like him a lot huh?
Serene: huh? Why so random?
Bei: I don’t know. To me, it’s just a normal conversation and it already made you so happy.
Serene: …

I’m trying not to think, but it doesn’t work. I’ve to stop trying and let it happen by itself. When it wants to happen, it will. I don’t have to do anything to it. Stopping it will only hurt myself further.

Sometimes, I don’t understand myself. I’m not difficult to understand, am I? I don’t know why I always dwell on it; knowing that nothing is gonna change it. I should divert all my energy somewhere else instead of thinking of negative thoughts.

Why should I even care when they/he/she don’t?

I’m too emotional. I’m way too pampered. I want things to happen the way I want it to. It’s impossible. In the past, things always go my way and now I’m put to a test. I must win this. I must. I’m not weak; I’m much stronger than this. It’s just that I had all that I wanted and I take things for granted.

Bad things are coming my way now and I must face it. Fuck man, my heart hurts, but that’s the way. I’ve been ACTING strong for so long lah. I thought I was okay, but I can honestly tell you that I’m not. With just one look, Bei could tell that I’m not okay; smart ass. I didn’t know that I wasn’t okay. ROLL EYES.

Things are getting so bad that every part of my life is affected; work, relationship, emotionally, dance, family…

I just hate myself so much when I can’t even control my feelings. Sometimes, I feel that I should just self-destruct. AHMAGAD. ROLL EYES. ARGH.

I need time. Can I not see you anymore?

Ah, impossible.

I’m so loser lah. ROLL EYES.

HELLO, DON’T BE STUPID CUZ YOU DON’T MATTER AT ALL ALREADY! WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN DOING?! FEELING EMOTIONAL AND LETTING IT AFFECT YOUR LIFE? PLEASE LAH, CAN YOU BE STRONGER?! PEOPLE DON’T CARE ABOUT YOU ALREADY LOR, WHY THE FUCK YOU STILL THINK SO MUCH FOR WHAT HA?! WHY DO YOU WANT TO WASTE TIME ON SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T REALLY APPRECIATE YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE; YOU STUPID OR WHAT? IDIOT OR WHAT?! FUCK YOU LAH, WAKE UP.

That feels nice. HAHA! It feels scary sometimes knowing that you fight with yourself internally. For a moment, I felt anger arising, sadness ceasing… I just feel like punching something; screaming real hard.

Are these signs of depression? Oh no… touch-wood lah. ROLL EYES. Eh, don’t be stupid, I won’t get depression over this one. HAHAHA!

I’ve having a few problems now and they’re accumulating inside. I need to let them out.

Okay, random applications I did on Facebook! YAY!

No need to say; BINGO. HAHA! I think most girls love gentleman lah, but cannot be so extreme cuz we'll feel insecure one. HAHAHA!


Nice. :)


Thanks Girlfriend Joan; I wonder how you've been doing. I miss you. :) And to the one who wants to take me out shopping; you pay okay? HAHAHA! joking.


HARLOWWWWWW... Thanks! XD Wee... fan my ego. LOL


Fan ego again. HAHAHA! We should all use Facebook to fan ego. LOL! But why am I still not confident enough? :( Yeah, I know. Nothing stops you; you stop yourself.

I had lots of work to do on Friday. We encountered some problems lah and Wern Ling was really angry; not with us. So when, we talked to her, she had that ‘I’m currenly pissed’ tone. Wah, freaking scary please, I didn’t dare to ask her questions, but me no care. HAHA!

Serene: you were angry just now right?
WL: no ah.
Serene: don’t lie lah.

HAHA! Then she smiled. HAHAHA! She’s a brilliant boss.

It was a busy Friday! I didn’t go home at 6pm as we had a short meeting. I don’t mind anyway as I wasn’t rushing for dance. I’ve been doing so for a month and it was really tiring.

After work at 6pm, I’d rush to studio for dance till 8.30pm. By the time I reached home, it’d be about 10pm; really no life lor. HAHA!

The more I think of this, the more I don’t wanna graduate. Will I still dance after I graduate? I will if my friends are still in TPDE, I’ll definitely go back. :) I hope I won’t be too busy.

I like to take my time when I do things; just like how I like to walk to the bus-stop/MRT slowly and just take notice of my surroundings. Life is more beautiful than this…

Tony Romas's with Mooshi and friends.

BIG SERVING; BIG MONEY too. LOL





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I think I've become fatter liao. When I wear my jeans ah, I can tell. LOL! And here're things on my desk @ my work place!


I eat things like that during work everyday! HAHA!


My lovely bosses. (I drew them! HAHA)

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Hao Ming at the airport! I looked damn 'chui', I tell you, cuz it was after TPDE chalet and I didn't have enough sleep!



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My boyfriend, calling Joy's phone. LOLOLOLOLOL!


KAT, my girlfriend! XD

I thought I couldn’t go dance on Saturday. I finally don’t have citizenship issues; thanks Mum and Dad. They’re the ones (Mom especially) who’ve been helping me cuz I’m too busy with attachment liao.

Dad drove to ICA. At the parking lot, the arrow clearly started the ‘one way’ sign… My Dad hor…

Serene: eh pa, I thought it’s one-way?
Dad: aiyah, don’t care.

LOLOLOLOLOL! Now Mooshi, you know who I learnt those from? HAHA!



It was An-An’s. HAHA! Yay. I like. But I was utterly disappointed with myself for free-styling session. Thinking about it now, I feel hurt. I don’t know what I was doing lah. I kept telling myself: wah lau, sure cannot.

STUPID. OF COURSE SURE CANNOT LAH, WHATEVER SERENE.

Once one had that kind of mentality, nothing is gonna come out lah. I seriously didn’t enjoy the music lah. To be honest, I didn’t hear any beats; I refused to listen to it. Don’t know what’s wrong with me. ARGH. I felt super demoralized yesterday. I was super upset lah.

I was thinking about it the whole day. Chin was affected by it too, but she chose not to think about it. WHY AM I SO WEAK?! ARGH. FUCK.

I thought I wanted to go StudioWu for lesson, hoping I’d feel better, but Joy, Chin and Joey pulled me away. I just wanna say thanks to you girls and how much I love you girls lah. I openly confessed to them man. HAHA!

Seriously, when all of us are there together, I just forget all my worries. I fuck care the whole world.

I saw a really chio pink glasses for $25 and I just bought it instantly. It felt nice. HAHA! Chin said this person is addicted to me. -_- please lor. WAH LAU eh. I just rolled eyes. I don’t want!!!!!!!!!! I don’t wanna be friends with just any random person; I don’t wanna waste their time, I don’t wanna waste mine.

When I talk to someone, I will know if he/she can be a great friend of mine. I just don’t wanna hate someone cuz he/she does things not of my liking.

Eh, I’m still a friendly person yo. HAHA! I appreciate friends a lot. :)

After lunch, I went to Chin’s house. Actually I didn’t get the SP concert ticket, but Chin managed to get one for me. Then when we arrived there, she was the one without ticket and Rahim brought me in. HAHA! Thank you Rahim.

I talked to Rahim quite a bit as he sat beside me. He taught me a few things about free-styling. He broke through after KO-Nite.
“I joined KO-Nite before the actual day. Initially, I was really afraid I’d make a fool outta myself. But when I was at the circle, I knew I had to do something as everyone was waiting to see something. I didn’t have a choice, so I just whack. You’re too conscious about yourself. Don’t be. I’m sure you’re stress cuz you go out as a senior. You see the juniors, many of them, they just do, cuz they think that they’re juniors what, nothing to lose. If they do ugly, it doesn’t matter cuz they’re juniors. If they do it nice, all of us will be impressed. Surely, all of us have different styles. You’re just afraid. So, don’t think. Just do!”
:) thank you, thank you. HAHAHA! And I told him straight that I didn’t like him in the past cuz of some reasons. HAHA! So funny. ^-^


My cousin was there too! So happy to see her! :D I hid her bag and she wasn’t aware of it. She was panicking lah! HAHA! She is so damn cute yo; damn dope too! XD I’m really proud of her; Suntec Finals 2007 – Poshbites, Funkamania 2008 – E dee Vance (1st-runner up). HEH! I booked Danzation tickets from her already yo; just in case we couldn’t get tickets again! Ahh… I love her plenty.


The concert was nice. :) I just keep noticing this girl, I don’t know what’s her name lah; senior; was in Suntec Finals too; long hair. LOL! She does modern too! Wah… I like the partner work sia! I don’t think I can do modern as I’m freaking NOT FLEXIBLE. Roll eyes. I noticed this guy with long hair and bandana also; and the guy who's damn good in HOUSE. and that breaker who did modern and locking! AHMAGAD. I super love the partner work.

GEM 4 coming. LOL! XD I remember how it felt like during GEM 3… wee… scoldings and scoldings… tears, laughter and such. We’re gonna experience it all over again soon. :)


It’s really hard to coordinate when too many people are around ah! HAHA! We alighted at City Hall, bought food and sat near Gloria Jeans. I dirtied my white pants, AHMAGAD. I’m so clumsy, I tell you. So, all the while, I had to use my bag and cover my pants while walking lah. AHMAGAD.


Yeah, as I was saying at the beginning of the entry…

The seniors who were there: Sam, Kai Wen, Pang Yang, Frankie, Iris, Kat, Chin, Andreas and Mel.

I started talking to Sam and Frankie regarding my mentality, suddenly, everyone just crowed around lah. HAHAHA! I told them that there have been so much, so much on my mind recently and I just keep them.

While talking, I just tear lah. WAH LAU. I felt the pain, suddenly. I finally let it all out. I’ve always been negative about so many things and I keep losing the battle.

It just felt so much better after that. :)

Chin, PY and I alighted at Simei. We sat at Starbucks for a while and PY taught us lots of things. I didn’t know he’s so mature one lor; OMG. HAHAHA! I feel so noob. He told me he remembered what I choreographed for TBG audition. :)

He told me,
“You’re someone who needs lots of assurance.”
I can’t help but nodded in agreement. AHMAGAD.
“Actually don’t. It’ll become a habit. See it as a bonus in life. What if one day, you’ve no more assurance? Will you die? No. life still goes on and this is the point where you’ve to learn to be stronger. When there’s no more assurance left, you know that you still have yourself cuz you’re strong enough to assure yourself.”


Chin: Yo! Stop dwelling in all those negative thoughts. Grow up le!! You want something, you gotta work for it. No point thinking so much and not taking action, right? Why not use the energy to train instead? Flashing the *ghetto face* at you.

Chin: rest well yea. You’ll be good. You will be.

Goodbye To You - Michelle Branch

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and
nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

Dear God, please bless my whole family.



I care, but you don't. So, what the heck? :)

Update, update…

How’s work today? Damn tiring; fun, stressful, filled with emotions… la la la… different combinations… lah… so tired…


I learnt to appreciate simple wonders of life. Sweet little thoughts make me happy and leave me smiling. :) I don’t ask for much now. I just want to be happy? :)

It’s little things that you do…



Daddy WW told me not to give in to myself. Sometimes, I do agree that the devil is helping you in some ways, protecting you from harm; making you stronger. The angel is weak and soft-hearted. I’m more of a devil now, I guess. I don’t emo that much anymore. I don’t really wanna think about complicated stuff.

Sometimes, when I feel upset about small thing, I’ll count my blessings…

1. I’ve a happy family
2. I’ve a home.
3. I’ve enough to indulge.
4. I’ve lots of real friends.
5. I’m having attachment at Resorts World
6. My bosses are super nice to me.
7. I’m healthy
8. I can dance!
9. So many more…

See? :) so many things. Wayne told me, sometimes, you should just look at your 10 fingers. You’re so much luckier than those who don’t even have fingers…

And his words really make sense to me. My bosses brought me to eat at East Coast today.

Ah… that place…

Then while BIG BOSS was away, small boss talked to me in the car. That person is Wayne lah. HAHAHA! okay… hmmm…

Wayne: there are many lessons to learn in life. You’ll find it amazing. I think that to me, we all have to make choices. At any one time, there’re so many choices to choose from. You will definitely choose the best. Maybe 2 years down the road, you look back, regretting the choice you’ve made. I think that’s really a pity. Once you’ve decided on something don’t look back. But, before you make your choice, make sure that there’re sufficient reasons to support. For example why do you choose A over B. there must be reasons for it. If not, when you look back, you’ll regret. On certain circumstances, we do have regrets, but we must tell ourselves that at that point of time, decision A was the best. And now, perhaps I think I shouldn’t have chosen decision A, but I’ve to tell myself that… decision A was the best choice. No one knows what’s gonna happen in the future. Things are always changing… Like for example… you’ve a boyfriend, girlfriend, friends… all these apply. I’m sure you’ve been in a relationship before?
Serene: yeah… broke off in August.
Wayne: wah… that’s very recent.
Serene: yep…
Wayne: I find that it’s only in rare cases that young people nowadays will eventually marry their poly sweetheart or something like that; unlike me, I'm so lucky! HAHAHA!
Serene: HAHAHA! Perhaps, maybe we’re too young and not necessary now.
Wayne: true, true. It’s good to have and not good to have lah. Like if you have, you’ll always have someone there for you, you know. It’s different from having a friend. For example, you ask your friend out last minute, he/she will say he/she has something on or things like that. but if it’s your boyfriend, it’s different. He’ll put you first. I mean when you tell him your problems, he’ll be willing to listen and go through it with you; that’s the difference. I think it’s not totally bad; it’s a good experience lah.
Serene: yeah I know. But perhaps all is too early… like now, if I find a boyfriend who isn’t working, I can’t expect him to pay for everything cuz he’s still living off his parents.
Wayne: WAh… who taught you this, I like your mentality. HAHA
Serene: my Mom. HAHAHA!


Enough of that… I enjoyed my time with my bosses; they’re so nice. I’ll really miss them.

I have plenty to do today and I felt so stress, but I CAN ONE. :)



Today is probably my last class with Bryan. I’m really happy today cuz I managed to catch everything and such. :) it’s all in the mind. I passed him a letter and when I was about to leave, I talked to him a while. I’m gonna miss him, really. He’s a great instructor. When I walked outta studio, wah lau eh, I cried; emo pok. HAHAHA!

I’ll definitely go back. :)




I feel so important now. My friends will message me randomly, telling me what’re they’re doing now and stuff; asking for my opinions; telling me about their problems; thanking me for motivating them blah blah blah… :)

It feels really nice? :) cuz I make people happy, I feel really happy too. :)

I appreciate all of my friends a lot. And when she was sick, I was damn worried. I think about her a lot. I sms her everyday, asking if she’s fine; reminding her to see the doctor if she isn’t well. I thought about all the bad things that could ever happen to her. When I thought of that, wah lau, I cried. :(

I will cry like mad. I can’t imagine. AHHHH… Stupid thoughts. You’ll always be there with me right? :) You know who you are uh, I don’t wanna say your name only.

I really appreciate you and I love you okay? :) You mean a lot to me. :)


I’m tired… and I’m falling sick too… I’ve been coughing… :( thanks all for asking me to see doc if it’s serious. Hope it won’t be.


Good night.

Ydhtcar. :) this sentence, motivates me a lot, thanks Christian; I’ll remember it. :)



But it’s only you, just you.

I just came back…

I’m so, so, so tired today and I just wanna complain.

Am I happy today? Okok lah… random thoughts:

He told me how carefree he is now; doing things he likes/enjoys doing. No more SMS/MSN or the likes. Perhaps simple greetings with less than 2 sentences. I think he’s okay with everything now. I guess I had been stressing him too much and I had been a burden. I don’t like to be a burden and I’m glad I’m not one now.

I’m holding back; why? Perhaps I know that there’s nothing I can do about it. Or maybe there’s something I can do? But, ahh… I don’t wanna be a nuisance, so… keep it real. I’ll just let fate decides for me? :)



I suddenly remember what Alan said to me...

Serene: i don't wanna be a burden
Alan: no you're not a burden. you're my responsibility.

And I've never felt so secure, emotionally.



I hate attention-seekers. ROLL EYES. I think you should just do your thing and shut up instead of behaving like you know EVERYTHING and making lots of stupid noises. It’s ultra irritating, if you don’t know. ROLL EYES. ARGH. I just hate them. I mean I like some seriousness, peace, quiet and some respect. I don’t like it when he/she tries to ACT till he/she is so damn loud, attempting to announce to the whole world about his/her presence. ROLL EYES.



Mom: can you don’t dance this sat?
Serene: huh? Why?
Mom: you need to go to ICA and settle your citizenship stuff.
Serene: what time?
Mom: morning.
Serene: but I’ve dance.
Mom: can you not go? Is it very important? Will it affect your marks or whatnot?
Serene: no, if I’ve valid reasons; but I like dance.
Mom: yeah, I know you like dance, but you’ve to settle this quick, if not you’ll be stateless.
Serene: okay then.
Mom: ask Dad if he’s free on Sat; he’ll bring you there.


No dance for me this Sat; but, but it’s my last class with Bryan @ StudioWu! :( I’m gonna miss Bryan so much. If I don’t get Funka, I’ll continue with StudioWu. If I get Funka, I’ll just concentrate on it.

Do I have high hopes? Hmmm… I don’t know how I shall put it. I don’t wanna have high hopes for fear of disappointments. Perhaps this is why I always lose confidence in myself. In other words, I’m just trying to protect myself from all the potential hurt that I’ll be getting. But this makes me lose my confidence; so which is better? I seriously don’t know.

If I get, I’ll still dance. If I don’t, I’ll still dance; I guess. Hmmm… Oh well, God will give me what’s best. :)



I put my previous nick as ‘I love you, Dad.’ People were asking if I was referring to Daddy Wei Wen. -_- NO. it’s for my REAL Dad. LOL! I can only love Daddy Wei Wen as an ‘artificial’ Daddy, but not other kinda love if you’re thinking I might be having a crush on him or whatnot. HAHAHA!

It doesn’t mean I like that person if I keep talking about that person in my blog right, it’s just that I interact with that person more and I remember events that happened between me and that particular person.

No matter how eligible Daddy Wei Wen is… I can’t! cuz he is currently dating. HAHAHA!!! Shhhh… low profile. LOL! I almost let the cat outta the bag cuz I’m not supposed to mention any names. Daddy Wei Wen told us who she is though, but not a lot of people know about it. There was one occasion; I just randomly... sth sth sth...

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AHMAGAD. I’m so brave. HAHAHA! She was staring at me luh; with plenty of question marks in her head, that, I’m sure. LOL! Okay, I’m super brave and annoying. XD

WW: take things slow lah, I don’t wanna rush.
Serene: hmmm… so long have you guys been like this?
WW: A few months, I guess… like maybe 2 or 3?
Serene: so do you text her very often?
WW: Yes, definitely. I mean I feel comfortable talking to her and all lah.
Serene: hmmm… how often do you guys go out?
WW: Maybe once or twice per week? I mean I’ll plan where to go and stuff.
Serene: wah that’s nice…
WW: Yeah, I think that’s the way lah, just don’t rush… just talk to each other, you know. Be nice to her and hmmm yeah… HAHA!



And I was lying to myself. -_- HAHAHA! it doesn’t matter, I’ll feel lost sometimes. HEH, I’m fine now though. I don’t know why I keep running away from it. ROLL EYES.

Bei: I don’t really have a good impression of ??
Serene: ha? Why?
Bei: cuz ah… when the boys ah, they’re together ah, they like to act act… I don’t know it’s their ego or don’t know what lah… he was talking to his friends about the girl he likes… what the girl this and that, cannot make it, then he’s gonna give up all this shit lah… always talk cock.
Serene: then in the end still like right? HAHA
Bei: yeah… it’s like damn childish… I mean, just admit it and stop being so egoistic, acting like you don’t care.
Serene: actually I think that ‘I’m giving up’ is a lie. I mean you can’t tell your heart who you wanna like. You wanna give up also very difficult. It’s just a saying to make you look better. HAHA
Bei: yeah. If I can control my heart, I’m a genius.


I wanna post up lots of funny conversations… HAHAHA! I’ll do so when I’m not so tired…

I met Lou and Sam at 18 Chef @ Simei after Kate’s class. I love their food and service.

They didn’t bring their boyfriends. HAHAHA!!! GIRLS DAY OUT, eh, no. NIGHTS OUT. HAHAHA! so happy to see them again… :)


Okay lah, I’m going to sleep; one day closer to end of SIP! XD I don’t hate my SIP lah, in fact, I learn a lot. :)

I’m just not used to working life. I miss school.





I miss you.

I’m holding back.

Hello! It’s 12.07am now, but I still wanna blog! :)

What’s up, what’s up, what’s up?! HAHAHA! I’m kinda happy today, so yeah. Hehe!

I felt quite sleepy and stress while working, so I decided to post up a bulletin to keep myself awake! Hey, it worked! :D



Daddy Wei Wen, Danny, Jabez and I had our lunch at Subway. Pris went to meet her baby again! Before she left, she said, “will you be okay with the boys?”
I said, “don’t worry lah. I’m okay with them one. HAHA!”

Aw* so sweet of her! HAHAHA!

While queuing up…

Serene: what’re you ordering?
Daddy WW: -he said something, I can’t remember- you?
Serene: I think I’ll take –something I can’t remember-
Daddy WW: Do you always order the same thing?
Serene: yeah…
Daddy WW: Why not you try something new?
Serene: ha… don’t want lah, I scared.
Daddy WW: -laughed loudly- what’d you mean you’re scared? HAHA! Just try something new lah, maybe you’ll like it.
Serene: okay lah, I’ll take subway melt then.

Daddy WW: So, which vegetables do you normally put in?
Serene: hmmm… lettuce, tomatoes, onions?
Daddy: why not you try something new? Don’t tell me you’re scared again.
Serene: okay, I’ll put all!

Daddy WW: So what sauce you always put?
Serene: honey mustard.
Daddy WW: Since you like pepper so much, why not try the pepper one?
Serene: okay then!


HAHAHA! I thought it was really funny eating something I’m not really familiar with. Thanks Daddy Wei Wen. HAHAHA! I always call him Dad and he calls me daughter; super funny. I don’t know how it started, but it’s just really lame.

The boys made fun of me all the time and my tummy always hurts. But I’m thankful for them though. They helped me lightened up a lot. :) if not, I’ll emo at my work place the whole day.



I went to Daiso to get some stuff for my supervisor. We were a bit late for the bus and the uncle didn’t stop cuz he didn’t see us. OH MY GOSH. The 3 boys were already in the cab and when I wanted to go in, Pris called, telling us that the bus uncle is making a turn to come back and pick us; so nice right?! HAHAHA!

We laughed like idiots. HAHAHA! It was super funny and damn embarrassing please. See lah, disturb me some more luh! We thanked the uncle profusely! :D



She is much nicer to me now, I hope. Anyhow, she made me learn also lah; how not to lose my temper and how to deal with people. In a way, she did help me no matter how nasty she was to me. :)


Daddy Wei Wen was so nice to his daughter today as he helped her with the freight (very heavy lor); he helped her with the packing too! Your daughter super touched ha! LOL! Thanks Danny and Pris for helping me too!

I appreciate you guys lots. You all always make my day! :D



Oh Kandis, it was a slight… lah… HAHAHAHA!!! Weee… my heart felt so… don’t know how to describe. HAHAHA!!! WOOOOOOOOOOO… I hope it’s nothing serious cuz I’ll be in deep shit know?! Actually I don’t mind also lah… cuz… HAHAHA… you know, I know. :D


After that, Daddy WW went to gym and I went to wellness centre while waiting for his friend to pick us up and drive us to school!

I meet a new friends today, Tim; Tennis vice-captain. Oh, my daddy is captain hor, don’t play play; tennis damn good one okay! HAHAHA!

Yep, really grateful!! :)



I enjoyed Hazrul’s class plenty. He’s such a nice person, you know; patient and all. He’ll make a damn dope boyfriend. HAHAHA!!! I think only lah. HAHAHA!!! I feel that… during classes like this, we should see him not as a friend but as a choreographer, as someone we can learn from instead of talking among ourselves, interrupting his class. I think that’s rude. That applies to me too. I think it’s something I can learn from yah; to not take advantage of his patience and stuff.

Yep, he really is a nice person. I wanna thank Kevin for being so patient with me too. :) There are a few steps I couldn’t do luh and he was really nice and patient with me lah. Thank you. :)

Kai Wen, you’re so funny. HAHAHAHA!!! Woooo… I’m enjoying moments of Disturbia…. =x HAHAHA…


I couldn’t recall the ‘this or that’ choreo. Now, I remember it liao, but I haven’t learnt the street jazz one leh… AHHHHH… roll eyes…


I love to ‘take’ Joy away from Frank luh cuz he’ll give me really funny expressions. LOL! I like! HAHAHAHA!!! Ah Lee was there too! HAPPY TO SEE ALL OF THEM. ;D

Joy and I kissed Joey; I kissed her left, Joy kissed her right cheek. HAHAHA!!! Super funny. HAHAHA!!! No one kissed Joey before leh!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!! VIOLATION sia!!! XD LOL! Chin, your turn to kiss her lips. HARLOWWWW… James, you jealous right?! HAHAHAHA… woooooooooo…



I’ve new friends to go home with me le!!!!!!!! YAY… Li Ting and Fion. HAHAHA!!! Very nice girls; talkative too, talk a lot, I like. LOL! XD YAY!!!! Next time, Gems 4, I don’t have to be afraid that no one will go home with me late at night already!!!! YAY!!! I didn’t know our houses are so near each other luh… Fion alight at the same stop as me leh! HAHAHA!!!

Yeah, we talked a lot of random stuff. Then, I couldn’t finish talking to Fion, so we sat at the bus-stop there for quite some time, talk talk. LOL!


The juniors are like so nice. HAHAHA!!! I mean those I know one ah!!! LOL! Those I don’t know one, I’m not so sure… heh! Eh hello, I’m also nice, that’s why. HAHAHAHA!!!! XD


Okay, sleepy ahhhhhhh… I hope I’ll be happy like this everyday. :)



Secret. :)

Let me blog a bit before I forget everything…

“Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there…”

Joey: change song.
Joy: orh okay.
Serene: why leh, nice song mah.
Joey: no.

:) I know lah Joey. I’m fine with it, I think. I almost, you know, but HAHA! But thanks lah, I appreciate that thought a lot!!!

Before we went off for movie the other day, Joy squeezed my face, telling me that I must be happy and smile.

Joy: make her happy ok?
Chin: yeah, I will.

:) I’m happy ah, really. :)

Joey: harlow… are you okay?
Serene: ha?! Why, yes…
Joey: I don’t know lah, you’re like so quiet nowadays.
Serene: got meh?

Really? Am I quiet? I don’t know leh, perhaps I didn’t notice.



While alone, I thought of a random story. Perhaps things will happen that way? Perhaps I was just thinking about it. I just smiled to myself, feeling happy. But, I had to come back to the reality, right? What is the reality? I myself don’t know ah. ROLL EYES. There’s no one to tell me the answer; no one is here to tell me about anything.

I’ll see how long I can withstand this. I’m afraid; very afraid. I’m afraid I won’t change my mind. How ah. I think I will die lor. :( I can’t stand the thought of you being - - - - and - - - - and stuff.
:( I will cry. Wah, having such thoughts right now makes me so… ah shut up.



Joey, Chin and Joy messaged me consecutively today. I was OMG-ing to myself. HAHA! I just smiled! :D thanks so much lovelies. I feel so loved. :) Joey and Joy, take care of your back ha… Chin, your throat ha… thanks. Sometimes you all make me worry for you lor. ROLL EYES.



My boss is so nice. I love her plenty. She is damn cute also luh!!! XD



And I can’t stand it when you keep talking about yourself. I’ve no comments on that. I just ROLL EYES lor. I don’t hate that person or what, I mean… AHHHH… You don’t have to keep repeating things about yourself, wanting positive comments about yourself. -_- okay lah, I feel so mean. I’m sorry.



Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

Not only to my girls, but to friends like… Ahhh… I hate this… think yourself okay. HAHAHA! my top 3 classes friends. :) about 20+ of you. Hehe!


Oh and YOU!!! Please take care of yourself and don’t fall sick hor. Don’t come complaining to me ah, I will scold you lor.


They can say
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,
Oh, Lord, they do try,
Hard to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe or lose faith in my dreams










Just wanna tell you that I really really like you yea.

If I Were A Boy.

I want to post up some pictures? Maybe they’ll make me feel happier? But I’m not in the mood leh… haiz, sometimes, I think I’m such a loser lor; I can’t even get over something that another can get over so easily.

Why ah? Yeah, it’s all in the mind, that, I know. My heart kinda hurts already because… (I don’t feel like saying it). Why, why, why? How can you take things so easily? Is it because I take things too seriously? But I’m like that what; I mean, tsk… like, it’s only right to be serious in such things? Ahhh… whatever Serene. WAKE UP!

All I can do now is to tell myself to stay strong and remind myself that even how sad I feel, nothing is gonna bring it back. Everytime tears welled up my eyes, I’ll hold back because I feel it’s totally not worth it and that person won’t know or even give a damn already?

So why, Serene? Why?

It’ll hurt for a while; let it be. I’ll recompose myself after this.


But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open



I can do whatever you wished/wanted me to do. But no. I won’t. Are you worthy of my time? Saying this very sentence, yeah, I know that I’m not worthy of your time too. Sadly, all these are my assumptions, but nothing is going to change it. I’ll think they’re all correct because no one tells me that they’re wrong.

Someone taught me the art of being egoistic in a guy. LOL! It is really funny.

Someone: when a guy talks to you, and suddenly you feel sad, his heart will say, 'How ah? She’s sad now, faster, console her quick!’ When he was about to tell you what his heart feels, his ego shouts, ‘NO!’ Then, probably that’s always the end of the conversation and they girl always ends up getting hurt lor.
Serene: HAHAHA, nice story.
Someone: So, if a guy can’t even push down his ego for a girl he likes, he’s like a jerk to me.
Serene: hmmm… you're not a jerk right?! HAHA
Someone: NO LAH! Wah lau. If I really like that girl hor, I heck my ego one. To me, love has no ego lah.



Now we're caught in a circle
A constant battle
The day that u hurt me
The clouds cast a shadow on us
And I hope that your happy we're even now

What is this, what happens to relationships, started off so good and ended up so bad baby I just wanna know, OoH Tell me do u know, baby
Before we knew it we were at it again, no no no, somehow I don't think we can ever be friends, wish it wasn't so
Wish it wasn't so

So we go on and on on this merry go round trying to chase a love that can never be found time to say goodbye and step off of it now,
It's over girl it's over



I just keep thinking of songs for some reasons? Perhaps they mean something? It’s okay if you assume cuz we assume all the time, isn’t it? Only my friends will know what I’m trying to say? Hmmm… just don’t judge too much cuz what I think may not be what you think.


Iris talked to me when I went to find them during Halloween night; they were having training. I was like ‘WAH! Am I talking to Iris?’
HAHAHA! I’m not insulting her or whatever. She’s just a different person now. Maybe her relationship makes her grow in a way.
She says, “When Andreas and I have our disagreements, we make sure that we solve it on the spot. We’ll talk nicely to each other like why this happens and that happens; how to not repeat the same mistakes. But of course, in this case, MSN and SMS are out of the question. I feel that we shouldn’t communicate too much using these means as it’s too misleading sometimes. I think face-to-face and at least a phone call will definitely help because you can say what you feel immediately. In MSN and SMS, there’re no emotions attached and many times, you just assume which is not healthy for the relationship at all.”
HAHAHAHA!!! Wahhhh… that is Iris. LOL! Yes, of course I agree, a lot. :)



Haiya! I need new phone, new bag, new shoes and new pants!!! I want HOT, HOT, HOT pink one!!!!!! HAHAHA!!! Andreas said he’ll look out for me when he goes to Taiwan in December. I think I’ll be getting W595, newly launch. Sadly, no pink leh; a bit of red and white. Hmmm… I love Sony Ericsson phone though. LG has pink phones, but so many of my friends don’t encourage me to get LG phones. Hmmm…

Shoes; I really want hot pink lor! I saw this Nike ($129) shoes with pink and grey; quite nice, but not THAT nice till I have the ‘WAH, I MUST GET IT’ feeling. HAHAHA! okay, I want pink bag, I want pink pants!!! XD

Maybe I’ll feel better when everything is new. HAHAHA! Whatever man.



After class just now, I was walking along Raffles City. I saw Andreas, Iris, Kevin and Tim! Somehow, the feeling felt nice. HAHAHA! I don’t know why. We talked for a while and bumped into my girlfriend, Kat. XD they asked me if I wanted to go cheer them on for vetting.
-________- HAHAHAHA! Siao lor. I think I’d ‘stoned’ to death. XD yeah, anyway, simple things make me smile.



Wah, my post will be super random and messy. HAHAHA! I just talk about different, different things. AHMAGAD… ah, heck.

I’m really happy for Sam. When I thought about her, I just smiled to myself. I didn’t know that what I said can trigger something so beautiful leh! HEHE! I sent her an SMS:

Serene: hi sam. I feel so happy for you for some reasons. I just keep smiling to myself when I thought of you. :) stay really happy alright? :)
Sam: Hahaha. I’m also very happy. :) thanks for making fun of us if not we wouldn’t even get together. Lol! :) I hope you’ll be happy too. Heh!

:):):):):):):) WOOO… Eh, you all owe me sia! HAHAHA! Yeah lor, talking to someone who’s in love is a totally different feeling man. Eh, I’m smiling now. :) Weee… I’m the cupid. LOL! XD


And to my girlfriend, Kat…

Kat: Haha. you’re so funny and random. I wanna go Halloween party but I got no costume. :(
Serene: I also no costume :( tomorrow got dance lah how to go party. HAHA
Kat: oh ya hoh. Sian. See you later :) if you’re coming. Btw I will look damn shag today cause menses is here.
Serene: HAHA Nvm. I still love you. You’re still beautiful to me. HAHA. ah man. How you wished I was ur boyfriend. HAHA
Kat: Haha. you made me smile like an idiot to my phone. Lol. I love you too baby.
Serene: HAHA damn funny. I’m like laughing to myself. Heh heh. I feel sweet. La la. Ok gonna blog this cover. Heh I’ll most prob cya later!

This song is for all the girls and my of course, my girlfriend, Kat. XD

If I Were A Boy – Beyonce

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy

I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong


But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (and you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

Recently, my friends always talk to me about relationships problems. -_- HAHAHA!!! Okay lah, I’m the best person to talk to can?! HAHAHA! And they’re the best person whom I can talk to also! I think it’s the mentality? I don’t know leh. Sometimes when I talk to certain people, their advices are really weird. It’s not very encouraging, so I just blocked out that comments. Sometimes, you just know that if your friends are in the right position to judge or not. Sometimes, they just say for the sake of saying; their evaluation of the situation isn’t in-depth enough, so they just anyhow whack; like whatever can. I feel that I can judge for myself; which advice is logical. I’m not like someone who listens to all the bad comments and give up on the girl he likes in the end. WAH LAU, you damn stupid. ROLL EYES.

Bei: Do you know when you really, really love a person?
Serene: wah, why you ask me this at this point of time? HAHA
Bei: don’t know leh, random ba. Have you ever felt this way before?
Serene: hmmm… I guess. My first boyfriend perhaps. Even though we were together for 2 months only and he cheated on me, I still loved him and it took me about a year to forget. Those times, I was freaking pathetic. You don’t want to imagine. He even brought his new girlfriend to meet me when I wanted to return him his jacket.
Bei: Wah… yeah, I think that is love. It’s when your friends, the people around you keep telling you that he/she isn’t good, you just only see the good part of him.
Serene: that sucks lor, especially when that guy ah… tsk… OMG my poor heart.



Okay, what did I do yesterday ah? Saturday…

I went for SIP briefing… then, I rushed to O-School; too late to learn the new choreography already. Chin wanted to teach me, but wah lau… hard leh. HAHAHA! She whacked me lah,
“Oi, faster learn.”
“Ok ok…”

I realised it was too much to absorb luh… I think she got a bit pissed off.

“Eh, sorry, are you like pissed off?”
“No lah. I scared you cannot catch.”

:) I smiled. Chin, it’s your ghetto face lah! HAHAHA! And I really love us cuz we’re not egoistic when we talk to each other. I mean normally if someone just kinda shows her displeasures on me, I’ll just get so damn pissed, but I said sorry. I said sorry leh. I didn’t even think lah. HAHA! Well, that’s the way it should be. :)


After that, went off to eat first with XiaoPei, Chin and Mel. Joy messaged me asking if I wanted to watch movie…

Joy: it’s either coffin or REC.
Serene: if you guys watching REC. then I go.
Joy: Hmmm… not sure. I’ll ask them?
Serene: watch REC. lah, then I go for 1 hour dance class then I’ll go meet you guys.
Joy: okay! We’re watching REC.


Serene: you wanna watch movie?
Chin: what movie?
Serene: Joy messaged. If they're watching REC. then I'm going.
Chin: okay.
Serene: so, you want?
Chin: I'll go if you go.

:):):):):):):):)

I chose the movie over dance cuz I felt that the chance won’t come by easily? It’s not on a regular basis that all of us will watch the show together.

When we (Bei, Mel and I) reached there… more than half of the seniors weren’t watching lor.
-_- HARLO, we went there for you all leh! Then you guys not watching?! HAHAHAHA!!! Aiyah, all fussy pok, didn’t want to sit the first 2 rows lor!!! They were contemplating whether to watch or not. TSK. WHY!?

Ah heck, the show was starting already… I didn’t know the juniors were there too, AHMAGAD. So many people!!!

Serene: eh, we came here cuz we wanted to watch with you all leh.
Chin: I know, but some of them are not watching.
Serene: are you watching? Cuz I want to watch, like now.
Chin: yes, okay, want to get tickets?
Serene: yeah, okay, no care. Tell Nelson to get tickets now.

Aiyer.. wishy-washy...!!! XD faster make decisions luh! XD



Before the rest left, they hugged me. I felt :):):):):) (I copy Sam one.) HAHAHA!!! Sam was like smiling to me luh, telling me about some stuff, thanking me too luh! AHMAGAD, I so love myself. HAHAHA! I talked to Kai Wen too and… HAHAHAHA!!! So funny. I can disturb them like mad already… WEEEEEEEEE… Sam, you owe me reggae classes!!! I wan COURSE one hor! XD


Er… the movie is something new to me lah… the quality was a bit off; unlike those typical ones; good camera, lighting and stuff. Okay lah, I don’t so spoiler. I’m afraid of scary movies lah, but I like to watch. HAHAHAHA! So funny, my head knocked against Chin’s head and we laughed so damn loud lah. HAHAHA!

Then, she went to sit at the stairs Bei… wah lau, abandoned me can?! During the 5 minutes or so, this junior was beside me, Jasmine; nice girl. LOL! I went toilet with her. HAHAHA! Okay, I just grabbed her and screamed lah, OH MY GOSH. LOLOLOLOLOL…

A while later, Chin asked me to go sit with her; wah finally care for me lor someone. XD

Chin: wah lau eh. Actually I not scared one lor, is you lor! keep screaming. I never scream one lor.
Serene: what… scary what, like shock leh.
Bei: yah, I also not scared! Is you all keep like ‘ahhhh… ahhhh… ahhhh!’ HAHAHA!
Chin: is serene lor! She knocked her head against mine! So pain you know?! Next time don’t watch this kinda show with you already lah!

HAHAHA!!! SO FUNNYYYYYYY…


Pai seh Xiaohan, I 14th then chomp with you okay?! :D I had to meet my parents.

After movie, talked cock a while, then I went to find my parents at Sim Lim Square! Steady lor, both my siblings have PSP! Roll eyes. my brother wanted to get PS3 leh! WAH, his eyes hor. TSK. I mean PS3 is for bigger kids and more violent games and it’s about $1200 for the whole package. I don’t know if they were trying to cheat us or what lor, but I told Dad not to buy. In the end, managed to convince my brother to get PSP instead. Thanks Bryan and Benjamin for advising.

Me? No lah. I’m not interested. I just want i-Pod. HAHAHA! I want new phone! I want external hard drive! Dad says okay! HAHAHAHA XD


Stupid Shawnie wanted to give me his piggy banks. ROLL EYES. inside no money one lah! Cuz he doesn’t have place to store them; then you think my house has lots of space meh?! HAHA!!! Still say what Christmas and birthday present. -_- he always lame with me lah! And hor, you don’t every time last minute plan outing can?! ROLL EYES.


Thanks Jun Wei for meeting me that night to choreo stuff with me! YAY! We still have a long way to go! Thanks buddy. Thanks. :)

So far, I’m really proud of you, Serene. :) stay this way and it’ll be better okay? You’ve endless encouragements from those who really love you. I’m sure you you’re aware of that. it’s them who makes you feel stronger, isn’t it?
‘Stay strong.’
They said. Don’t let yourself and your loved-ones down.

By just looking at your faces, I feel happy and contented. Thank God for you guys. :)

You: you’re not an egoistic person. Sometimes it’s only right to have that ego. I mean, I know you so long already. You’re much better than last time lah. Don’t worry babe, I know you’ve done enough, so, don’t brood over it. I’m sure so many have told you, ‘Serene ah, nice girl.’ Remember that. Remember that.
Serene: =)


I still have plenty of things to say? I think I’ll start anew…




You rested your chin on my head and I thought I was the happiest person on earth.

And now, even if I want to, I can’t stare at you anymore.